tired

i scribbled this down on the way to work yesterday.............

i'm so tired.......

*of the cold weather

*getting yelled at

*no one helping me

*no one wanting to watch the kids while i'm at work

*of being tired

*of the crying/whining before/after school

*no one sleeping through the night

*disappointing my boyfriend

*my toe hurting

*having no money

*having to be everything to everybody but not having anyone in my corner

*always being wrong

wow

wow, i forgot i had this thing. lol. anyway maybe i shall vent here. lately things have been really suckie. my bf hates me. :( he thinks i'm being a self centered bitch when all i really want is to feel special to him. everyone walks all over me but with him i always felt special and he seems tired of me. like he dosent have the time to be bothered with me anymore. i may say things that are out of line at times but i thought he could see beyond the insecurities that i have and understand where it comes from.

i was wrong.